i gave love another try. on the 20th MAY 2010. it was somehow very special for me, at least now, its not a bet from his friend. he did a surprise for me, what hapen was, B didnt contact me the whole day, we only webcam for a while during class. to cut things short, i feel different cos usually he would msg me, but i believed him when he said he was busy. so i went to RP for dance as usual. B said he just reached home. but when i reach at RP i saw kyn w a guy. i tot i saw bas, but suffy covered me with his body and we walk away, so i assume its faz. everyone ( shai, suffy, mike, ayee, shafiq ) was there with me. so i went to change and when i came back, ayee said she gt a video of new dance steps. so when she passed me the lappy, all i can see was a beautiful picture, with the word "SPECIALLY FOR YOU" then later my fav song, together was played at the background, and it was a slideshow bas make specially for me. it was so sweet ; i nearly cried but didnt cos too shy. then ayee blindfold me. it was hilarious, i have no idea where they were about to bring me, then we stopped, and when i remove the cloth, my B was there. bas was infront of me holiding on to the tinkerbell necklace that i want from DIVA, with a special letter B on it.it was so touching, infront of my darlings,he proposed & i said yes.

however, im sad cos i cant share this with my cliques. its just so hard. noone likes me moving on. everyone prefers me with aboo. only some is on my side. all i know is im happy now, but i would be happier if i can feel normal. its hard to explain it in words. but to make it worse, my family kind of like think its puppy love. && i think they still want me w aboo. its so sad. im sad. but im giving love another chance and another try, i dint say this is gonna be easy but i sure am gonna do something about it, cos i love being with him and im happy.please dont give up on me.

im so busy now , with projects and tests and dance and SC. i really wanna meet my cliques, i hope that when we meet, i wont feel left out. cos now, i already feel so. cos im the "bad" one.__ shittiest feeling ever.

is it wrong to love again? its not like i played timer or i did anything behind aboo's back. we broke up. im isngle and i moved on, i told aboo to move on . i tried my best. i love aboo, as my bestfriend. can you guys not ruin it for me?