hey, its been a long time since ive blogged. ive been really busy lately. life's a bitch too and luck was definitely not on my side.
18 march: had a date w aboo, we watch remember me and i wore the gorgeous black dress he bought me. that night, i made a new friend.
19-21 march: went to KL with my sisters.
21 march: i gave aboo the NASH CD.
22 march: went out w anuar, he bought me flowers and chocolates. we watch a movie on his lappy.
24 march: went to aboo's home, met his mamand i learnt how to cook sambal prawns. and amazingly aboo made roti boyan. later w head off to his grandparents place and i fell in love with his grandpa(:
26 march: had a big fight w sis. a cock up day.
27 march: shabby's bday.
28 march: had an outing w basirun ro harbourfront and sentosa. awesomeeee.
29 march: move in to Potong Pasir. discuss w sistasss.
30- 31 march: Student COuncillor SUmmit.(: i had lots of fun & made new friends.went to anuar's shop for ayam penyet. delicious.

1st april: went out w basirun, took his car, had breakfast at geylang and sent me off to RP for dance. then later we went to jurong hill, marina south something.. KTM for lunch then home.
2nd april: sis's bday cum housewarming party! aboo helped out. he had fun, all of us had fun. i earned $50. amazing((:
3rd april: had my drama then went for my madrasah.
4th april: went to meet aboo for a while for my surprise roti boyan n air batu.(: then went to bedok to get my stuff.

my life is super hard. im wearing a mask. noone knows. i dont show it. im in a love triangle. it sucks. its hurting me. its already a month me being single. i sound like a whore, a bitch. yeah love life sucks. i do miss those times. but we fought all the time. its painful. now, people are rushing me. im baffled. i need my friends, but theyve been busy. buut all i know is noone will be one my side cos im the "bad" one.
1: he's so nice, so quiet, so funny, comfortable to be with , awesome, knows me inside & out. but dont understand me and busy w friends. & yes, i dont like his friends. maybe because he didnt give me the chance to meet them.i miss him alot. but im still hurt. when we meet its fine but wehn we're just contacting, youre hurting me. i feel that you will never change. im afraid.
2: he got the whole package but, its too rushing and youre suckish at times. its hard to explain. we're not yet together but im controlled. i dont need you to be like the ex bf. i need my freedom. and although your saying ure not rushing, babe, ure pushing me.
3: he's e eyecandy and we are only friends(: he okay but i just know deep down, we cant be together.

i need this boys in my life,to be there for me. as friends. not more than that, cos im afraid of relationship. i swear. but i love them.. cos they make me happy and i didnt have high hopes anymore. im just going w the flow. im not a bitch. im just too friendly. im not a flirt, im just too nice.
oh and btw, if only theyre like him. (: baby, i love youuu!