pejam celik pejam celik skola da nk bukak, FUN! i guess not like last time. ive never have this shittiest feeling before in my whole life. i used to love going to school, during primary and scondary even PAP. looking forward to the fun activities im gonna have in school w my friends and teachers and homeworks( ok part ni bedek) and all. i love my course but something just affect me. its so competitive, people called friends, challenge one another to be on top. cant rely, cant follow, cant believe. just cant. giving each other looks and judging people w/o knowing them better. stuck up people around. life is so difficult when people just dont think of what they say. they dont think. hurting people's feelings and then said im the one who start it off first and didnt tell them the worngs they've done, i did and since people dont listen then i shall not say more.but actually since when people listen to me. only aboo knows. they either pretend to listen, or they ask me a qn then intterupt when i start talking.thier story is much more interesting. yah whatever. mum said i should not bother or think abt what people say. in the first place dont cheat my feelings uh.-__-' no link ; i know. and make the family proud cos she knows, my dad will be. always be. (: yes i know i have a big shit ego but im not as rude like some people. THANKS mum said just forget it, but how can i forgive and forget when im always having the nightmare over and over again?

can i ever forgive & forget, yes i will, im happy ive let out what i feel and tomorrow is a new day i shall be happy to meet ALL of my friends.i think. but what if i start smiling then arghhhh this is so (bulu tetek maknye) so yah im offing and crying.

on the brighter side