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Tuesday, June 23, 2009 @ 1:41 AM

happy belated father's day ayah.ily

this post is specially dedicated to my late dad.

if only u were able to read this..

i always miss the times we spent together.i will not forget.

i remebered the times where you gave me a shower when i was younger. and you would make me laugh. all the jokes we shared. i miss getting scoldings from you. i miss those sudden hugs where you would give me when you miss me. i miss your voice. you calling out my name. i miss you asking me for tea and saying "anak aku buat teh sedap" to my mum. i miss the times where i would exchange 10cents coins to 5o cents coins and sometimes you would call me just to give me lots of 50 cents which you collected for me cos you know i love 50 cents and i dont like any other small amounts.

i remember you buying me my first hp and you top up $50 for me. i miss us fighting over the remote control. i miss us exchanging hp. ii miss going shopping with you and you would ask me to get two pairs of anything i want.and when i say i only need one you would insist of getting two. i remembered the times when i was craving for mangoes and the next day you would buy it for me. and lots of it. i will never forget your smile your laughs. i miss you singing p.ramlee song.

i miss going to geylang with you. i miss being waken up in the morning- you would always call me up and make sure im safe in school. you would wait for me outside when im not home. you would cut my hair when i say its getting long. i miss you holding my hands while crossing the road. i miss you sitting next to me in the bus. i miss holding your hands while you were sleeping. i miss sleeping next to you. i miss you snoring. i just need to hear you again. i need you. i miss complaining to you. i miss the times where i would hug you. i miss the times where i would challenge you to go up the stairs. i miss calling you ayah.. i miss pressing your pager no and your handphone no. i miss complaining to you about mak not buying me the things i want.i remebered you would pick me up after school when i fractured my arm last time.i miss you saying im pretty.

i miss seeing you fishing. i miss seeing you showing off to your friends your fishing stuff and your bicycle collection. i miss going to bedok interchange to meet you when you get your pay. i miss you wearing your favourite cap. i miss you cooking for me. i really miss you ayah. i miss saying i love you.i miss you. i really do. i regret it when i make you angry. i regret going to the saloon last time to get my haircut cos i didnt know that i wont be getting my haircut by you anymore now. i regret to show my tantrums when you asked me to make you tea because i was tired but i didnt remember how hard you work hard for the family and how thirsty you are.im sorry for all the wrongs ive done.

i miss you badly. if only you were alive, ill be pampered by you.ive always be pampered by you if only you were at home, i could see mak smiling and laughing while you disturb her. if only youre alive, abang would have a job and our life would be easier.. mak would have enough money and kak long wont be the only one to support the family.if only you were alive, i get to buy things i want. if only you were alive.. i get to say happy father's day. i miss saying those three words. i miss buying you presents. i am really lost w/o you. i really am. you know, i really miss you. im crying now but its no use.. ure never coming back.i love you ayah. i hope you're proud of me. i never get to show you how successful ive been.i am always jealous of kids spending time w their dad. my friends w their dad. haizz.. there's more for me to say. its just to much. you'll always be my no. 1. my one and only ayah. i love you. mirah sayang ayah..

ya allah ampunkan la segala dosa-dosanya ayahku dan semoga ayah ku bersama orang orang yg beriman di syurga, amin.

if only my father were there to marry me, to see me graduate, to meet haerulll, my friends and his future grandchild..

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